April 30, 2009 So many things to deal with and no form of escapism, nothing nice to daydream about.
There's such intense pressure in me and I just get so helpless and break down so many times.
I hate long holidays.I hate not hearing from you
-nIx- @ [[11:46 PM]]
April 26, 2009 I don't bloody understand why I've to go to work so early and on top of that wake up half an hour before my normal waking up time and end work half an hour later, transport time included it means I am spending an extra 45min before working hours and another 1hr after work. Retarded.
I hate work.
-nIx- @ [[10:01 PM]]
April 20, 2009 Lazy bum me has been letting each day go by for the past 3months and 20days.
Today, I shall sit down and think what I want for the future. Current (ie within 1 year), for 2009.
Resolutions (outstanding and new) 1. (: 2. Complete my bike and vroom vroom overseas! 3. Learn to cook 10 dishes (incl yam paste and pumpkin soup from scratch!) 4. Save a minimum of 8k liquid cash and 11k liquid cash and realisable assets (ie bike!) 5. Donate blood 6. Take up something new and pretty unique (ie dance/golf) 7. Be able to speak cantonese fluently (or at lease evesdrop =x) 8. Note 4 apart, spend 1k to revamp my style of dressing when and only when I reach 5k (Of course I am still an accountant so don't expect me to spend more than $50 per item unless it's damn attractive and looks like its worth more than it costs. Helpers anyone?) 9. Exercise regularly...... =p 10. Spend less on redundant items and stop thinking of wasting money like on $529 wallets because I don't need them. I don't need them. I don't need them.
[I should include buy less bedsheets but the bed is my love, plus my baby bears must feel comfy at home so no way =p]
-nIx- @ [[10:51 PM]]
April 18, 2009 These is one of my cheap thrills.
I spent $28 on it, thinking oh so cheap... until I went online seeing the same thing for $16+, and US$1.79-US$1.89 each if bought in bulks of 1,000.
But then again. Cheap thrills always has its frills. So my first case was leaking really badly and the good part about buying at a shop is that I can touch and feel and.. exchange my faulty product on the spot!
The 2nd case isn't much better.. but it leaks less and I'm lazy to go back and replace it. Oh well.
I wanna try it at the pool tomorrow!
-nIx- @ [[7:26 PM]]
Material buys are only short term happiness.
The boy is contentment :)
-nIx- @ [[12:03 AM]]
April 16, 2009 Happy days. (:
-nIx- @ [[9:50 PM]]
April 13, 2009 Nat Geo's Speed Nation series is so cool! Delivery man on bikes carrying loads of items, youghurt lady(more like yakult ladies?) and zooming through roads and women carrying 3-4trays of food at a time. I love Korea.
I am so glad the horrible days are over :)
-nIx- @ [[11:34 PM]]
April 12, 2009 I'm so sick of crying. I just wish everything went back to the innocent old times.
I am so sorry for the stupid things I've done.
Sigh.
-nIx- @ [[10:28 PM]]
Sometimes I just feel so hopelessly depressed.
-nIx- @ [[5:27 PM]]
Somehow wished this long weekend would be a little more meaningful having a getaway from this hectic life, away from crowd, away from anything that would remind me of work, stress or anything that would overwhelm me with sadness.
Somehow wished this would be over and I'd be able to live life like it was before crazy stuff happened.
Somehow wished I could change my life in more ways than one.
Somehow wished I could be perfect.
-nIx- @ [[11:11 AM]]
Everyone in the office is so amazed at the over-rated coffee machine.
-nIx- @ [[9:58 AM]]
I keep hearing music playing. It's either all in my head or some inconsiderate neighbour. Because I hear it in the living room, I hear it in my room too.
To think I even picked up my clothes to hear if the sound came from them.
-nIx- @ [[12:21 AM]]
April 11, 2009
; red bean soup
Home cooked food is so hard to come by, now I'm having clear soup. Simple yet satisfying.
Apart from this meal and my cooking disaster, my last home cooked food was the bomb. Filled with love. That was about a month ago.
By far, I miss the red bean soup dessert. I love it.
"In the end its the small things that you remember, little imperfections that make them perfect" ; beautifully imperfect
Seeing things from a different view helps us to treasure and love one another more.
-nIx- @ [[12:48 PM]]
April 10, 2009 It fucking hurts so so so much
-nIx- @ [[12:20 AM]]
April 08, 2009
; do you catch my drift?
I know where I want it to head but I don't seem to have a say in things anymore. :(
-nIx- @ [[9:57 PM]]
April 05, 2009 When life is down in the dumps people go : I should have cherised the time when (fill in the blank with whatever they've taken for granted then). They then decide to cherish whatever they failed to appreciate.
Then things get better and they forgot what it felt like before and start to take things for granted.
But I'm different, I'm always thankful for everything. I always appreciate how lucky I am to have everything and everyone I have. I amwas contented with life. I wish I could be now but I'm helpless and lost in the deep blue ocean. :(
I guess there are some people who can influence you to look at things from a different point of view. People who mean so much to you.
-nIx- @ [[8:20 PM]]
My current favourite song is on repeat mode.
So is my phone. Beeping repeatedly.
Arrr.
-nIx- @ [[9:37 AM]]
I really wish I could change my mentality about life, about only living once, about trying everything at least once before I die. I wish I could take it back.
I wish I questioned myself with a little more scepticism, I wish I could blatantly point out wrong from right, I wish I hadn't done stupid things at times. I wish I had known what to do and treated you better.
I wished that prayer worked.
I wish I could put it all right.
I wish everything will be alright.
Sigh.
-nIx- @ [[4:08 AM]]
April 04, 2009 Why do we do things to hurt the people we love?
-nIx- @ [[9:47 PM]]
If I could turn back the time I would definitely do so.
Regrets I have plenty but I've learnt many valuable lessons from the stupid stuff I did.
Prayers? Do they actually work? Maybe that's the reason why I'm not THAT interested in Sunday classes after all.
-nIx- @ [[8:41 PM]]
My phone decided to die on me too. It charges on its own, killing its own battery and when I want to actually charge it, it refuses to charge.
And so these are times when a want becomes a need.